I killed my dog and ate it.
Nothing to apologize about.
He was old and blind. His days were numbered. I might have done him a favor.
A beagle with the cutest face. Quite the looker. Stole a private place in my heart the first time we met. Couldn’t think of another.
I could have buried him. But then, he’d be someone else’s. Those bugs and bacteria take over like it’s their birth right or some personal vendetta.
Tobby wasn’t for sharing. He was mine and Juliet’s. She died two years ago.
No, I didn’t eat her.
More her choice than mine. A proper burial with lots of flowers and violin music. That was her last wish.
I honored it.
But Tobby didn’t have any special requests. He was open to anything. And after much thought, I went to the store and bought lots of barbeque sauce. Five bottles, ranch flavor.
It would mask his doggy taste.
One Sunday morning, I took Tobby out to the woodshed and knocked him out with some chloroform.
A single bullet to the head did the job. He felt nothing.
I could never make him suffer.
Then came the difficult part. Cutting him into pieces. Believe me, several bottles of rum came to my rescue. I wonder if butchers work drunk. Makes the job easier.
Ziploc bags and a freezer became Tobby’s temporary resting place. I would have to go slow in the beginning. My culinary skills weren’t bad but limited. I could sauté, deep fry, and roast. What else was needed?
I gagged, choked, and cried tears of desperation. But Tobby would not be taken from me. He would become a part of me, merging with fat and muscle. I felt him alive inside me.
It was a glorious feeling.
The day I was having the last of him, my sister dropped by.
I don’t know if it was Tobby’s leg on my plate, his skin on my head, or his bones around my neck that triggered her hysteria. But she kept screaming till the police arrived.
They took me. Thank goodness, my dearest Tobby came with me.
[…] A Loving Taste by Terveen Gill […]
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You’re learning well from Bogdan…..
Tobby has spoken to me:
I am his dearest Tobby
(Tobby with a T)
Ever grateful he ate me
Together we now be
But I’m being digested and shitted out
This worries me…..
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Tobby still speaks…
Don, this worries me.
And his digested goodness will remain forever. 🙂
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Yes, Tobby spoke to me from the Upper Plane. You don’t believe in doggie communication with the UP? Oh ye of little faith. I agree his digested goodness will remain forever. It’s just his bad rubbish that’ll be shitted. Basic biology………
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Though I can’t imagine Tobby’s fate – I get it that it the kind of love that is as obsessive as it is repulsive. You managed to relay the whole scene so vividly, Terveen, haha. Great job at the writing.
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Thank you so much, Shobana. You’ve said this wonderfully. -)
Yes, it’s obsession and can be repulsive.
But the one involved thinks otherwise or has simply gone beyond any logic.
Scary, crazy, and devoted. That’s a strange combo.
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Definitely a strange combination, my friend.
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a macabre little tale/tail: gives a new twist to the saying: A dog is a man’s best friend 🙂 RIP Toby —
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Yes, the tail/tale went down well. All saucy flavored. Thanks a lot, John. 🙂
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In your fantastical style, you tell a morbid tale with exquisite detail that takes the reader on quite the journey of horror, to an ending that is, well, kinda funny! Love it, Terveen.
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Thank you so much, Jeff. I just can’t seem to let go of humor. Is life really just a funny depiction of joy, anger, and sadness? Maybe… 🙂
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You’re most welcome. Well, I for one, am glad that you will not let humor go. Ahhh, maybe, indeed…☺️
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How much I love your quirky tales. Poor Tobby. Dogs are men’s best friend and many mourn them so deeply. I once met a dog owner who can talk about her three dogs (not at the same time) forever. She just loves them so much, more than anybody or anything else in this world. They «possessed Beauty without Vanity, Strength without Insolence, Courage without Ferosity, and all the virtues of Man without his Vices.»
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So beautifully said, Haoyan. Yes, dogs and other pets can be the center of one’s world. It’s all about a loving connection. I’ve never owned a pet, but I know people who are crazy about them. Hard to understand but it’s a genuine feeling. May these bonds flourish (without the crazy factor). Thank you. 🙂
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I always find these driven beyond sanity tales interesting when they’re written from the point of view of the insane. It’s wild when you think that things like this actually happen and the people who do them are brought to the acts by reason and rationale (albeit distorted). Great piece!
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Thanks so much, Joseph.
The mind is what the mind does. We can only nod and follow. So if insane is it’s liking, then insane is the flavor of the day, month, or year.
I like how you say this – reason and rationale (albeit distorted).
That’s the crazy truth. 🙂
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Always a pleasure.
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Thanks so much, Joseph.
The mind is what the mind does. We can only nod and follow. So if insane is it’s liking, then insane is the flavor of the day, month, or year.
I like how you say this – reason and rationale (albeit distorted).
That’s the crazy truth. 🙂
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I can follow and swallow anything with a dash of humor. Great results often come from testing limits. It worked on this post!
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Thank you so much, Geoff. I’m glad this went down well with you. 🙂
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Wow this was a tale that started out like a sad story about the loss of a beloved pet but then I could picture you cutting up a little dog who was so loved. Crazy in the end by the loss of the two things she loved the most. Left alone in her grief she went off the deep end. I kept thinking of Hannibal Lector. The ending I was not expecting at all. I love a good surprise ending. Great story! The bones around the neck is a visual I will have most of the day as my little dog is on my left. Joni xoxoxo
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Joni, I hope I didn’t ruin the day for you. I often wonder how far a person can stretch the limits of sanity in the name of love. This was an attempt to capture a bond that could not just be broken. Insanity many will say. But true love can never be sane. Wishing you and the furry one lots of lovely days together. 🙂
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Not at all. The bond between an animal and a human is very strong. Dogs love unconditionally and humans are incapable of this. Once I lived with my sister and the man she rented from had a dog who was very sick. She or we actually took care of him for a few days. Poor thing couldn’t move. He was all by himself this man. Finally word was the dog died but then nothing. He had the dog in a freezer by the bed. I think you did an excellent job of capturing the extent of that love. You spin a great story Terveen. I am still mourning the death of a dog that died a year ago. It did make me think you could write a great horror story. By the way “true love is never completely sane.” I couldn’t agree more. Hugs 🤗 Joni
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Thank you so much, Joni, for sharing this. At times, letting go is not an option. Bonding means different things for different people. Call it crazy or call it ‘the deepest love’. May fond memories live on in your heart. The ache can be unbearable but time often softens it. Wish you well always. 🙂
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Thank you so much Terveen. Time does help with many losses. You too be well and happy. Love ❤️ Joni
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Definitely the love off your pet is true, but to the extend off eating it so it can be part off you is totally Grose.I also had pets but could not definitely think off eating it You are a awesome writer. I love your writing.
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Haha! This is a bit extreme and heavy on the tummy. Yes, pets are meant to be loved and cherished, but it’s best to let go of them when they are no more. I appreciate your support and encouragement. 🙂
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At least they will be jail mates together forever and she’ll have someone to talk too. You describe things thought not said and concocted a bit of the morbid yet laughable tale for some Halloween fun! 👻
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Thank you so much, Cindy. 🙂
The two have bonded forever, though the method was quite gruesome.
And humor and gore often make great partners.
Happy Halloween. 🙂
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You’re so welcome! So true and I’ll keep to burials 😂and happy Halloween.
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LOL.
It was a glorious feeling. – This is epic.
How do you even come up with such amazing subjects. That was a fun read Terveen.
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Thank you so much, Vignesh. I know what you actually wanted to say – Terveen, you really are crazy! Haha! Well, have to let the mind do what it wants sometimes. 🙂
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