Mother-in-law by Terveen Gill

She watches me from the corner of her eye.

It’s intrusive, uncomfortable, condemning.

If I could be forgiven for a crime, she would make sure that I hang – till death.

I’m not surprised. It’s been like this from the beginning. A start that should have been ‘the end’. But my ignorance was a curse, her swollen pride was the guillotine. It snapped my head off, one too many times.

Though I roam headless, my shoulders still droop beneath the burden of subservience.

Why don’t I object? Shouldn’t I give her a taste of her own medicine?

She will retaliate. It’s certain. And her men will come to her rescue. They are loyal and brainless, influenced by a witch who chants spells and wreaks havoc.

It would imply doom and many days of suffering. My self-respect is a mere drop in an ocean of utter disregard. The waves swallow and spit me out. There’s pandemonium and abundant drama.

How I wish I could drown and move on to another dimension. A place where she would not exist. I would find safety that cuddles and comforts.

Yet nightmares never succumb to daydreams. It’s a shallow supposition.

She won’t leave me. I’ll never be rid of her. It’s a difficult and forced relation.

If it hadn’t been me, it would’ve been someone else. And if it hadn’t been her, there would be another, maybe even harsher.

We all are replaceable. But the dynamics remain intolerable.

I’m pregnant again. It’s the fourth time, but I haven’t held a baby in my arms yet.

They were expelled from my womb. Cut to pieces and disposed in some garbage bin.

She says girls aren’t her preference. A boy will be her first grandchild.

I let her oil my hair and feed me sugary treats.

She hums sweet tunes, but her eyes radiate warnings.

My mother-in-law won’t let me live in peace.

I wish death would be kinder and take me away.

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  1. In spain… la suegra! I liked Saludos Juan

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Thank you so much! 🙂
      I add another word to my Spanish vocabulary, which is very limited.
      But learning is endless.
      La suegra…a bittersweet anomaly.

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      1. haha/ jaja la suegra!

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  2. Discomfort weaves through your story — and the lines about her pregnancies and their endings are devastating. Added to that is the sentence of the mother-in-law doing nice things like giving treats. Mixing that dread and sugariness is a powerful combination.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Thank you so much, Dave. This is really a hopeless and traumatic situation. It’s as if the mother-in-law is treating her daughter-in-law like a sacrificial lamb. Nothing remotely human about this.

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  3. You gotta problem. From your pic of her, poisoning would be futile. I feel for you wandering around with no head.

    I have no suggestions for your dilemma. Sorry……

    Oh? It’s fiction?…….

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    1. Yes It is realy! Jajajaja

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    2. Terveen Gill dice:

      This might be a story. But it’s actually happening for real. Really sad…

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      1. Much ‘fiction’ is based on true life……

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  4. This reminds me of the darker side of foeticide which used to be so common in many parts of India (I guess it is still so common). It’s a real shame when women are the first to volunteer their own kind.
    A very emotional story. The theme is brilliantly chosen.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Thank you so much, Vignesh. It is sad when women torment other women. You would think that there should be some compassion or understanding, but it’s really a selfish and greedy attitude. Sad for the ones who suffer.

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  5. *volunteer to kill their own kind

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  6. haoyando dice:

    People who have power often abuse the power and people who are powerless can do nothing but suffer silently. It is so true. I can identify with this, given the fact that I grew up in such an environment and witnessed the neglect, selfishness, and stupidity of my relatives who didn’t have much power in the society but had a lot of power over younger people around them. Still, it is not a completely hopeless situation for the heroine. I want to say there can be a way and we want to keep our mind open and look for ideas and solutions. Be strong and be resourceful when dealing with the ugliness of power.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      You’re so right, Haoyan. Power is an ugly thing. It makes people turn into monsters. Just because someone weaker or younger can be suppressed doesn’t mean that they should suffer. I’d say eventually everyone gets a taste of their own medicine. I have a thing for karma. It bites when you’re not looking…
      Thanks for your wise inputs. They are wonderful. 🙂

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  7. One daughter-in-law and my wife do not like each other but after reading this, they seem like the best of friends by comparison!

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      That would probably be a correct observation. Things can be much worse. Thanks so much, Geoff.

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  8. How awful! There is always this stigma with mother-in laws who controls and manipulates. Anyway, you brought out the evil in them quite candidly:)

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Thank you so much, Shobana. Some women are driven to mistreat their daughter-in-laws. Power play with no substance. Truly awful.

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      1. I can imagine, Terveen. Thank you.

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  9. Jeff Flesch dice:

    A haunting tale, wonderfully delivered, Terveen. Reminds me of just how important boundaries are; alas, in this situation I don’t know that they would hold. Great story. ☺️

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      In some cases, Jeff, there are no limits or boundaries. It’s just free for all. Very sad and traumatic. Thank you so much.

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      1. Jeff Flesch dice:

        Indeed, it is. You’re most welcome, Terveen. Always.

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  10. johnlmalone dice:

    what a horrible trap to be in; you flesh it out well 🙂

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      It is a horrid trap. Thank you so much, John.

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