Traitor John by Terveen Gill

I am John’s brain. And I never shut up.

Not even for a second.

The man thinks he’s tormented. I say he’s blessed.

What use is a brain if it’s dull and quiet? Why carry the extra weight if its services aren’t required?

But John doesn’t understand. It’s not his fault exactly. It’s that stupid heart of his.

Full of mush and always high on drama. Playing with John like he’s some goddam toy.

So I’m left with no choice but to always keep talking.  Distracting the man from the perils of that annoying muscle.

If it hadn’t been for me, John would’ve been in his grave. I talked him out of giving up and slitting his wrists.

That beating monstrosity is so keen to navigate him towards death.

But what does John do? Does he say thank you?

Hah! Fat chance!

He gets himself a tattoo and a psychiatrist.


I listen as John weeps upon a vinyl sofa, his heated words suggestions from that devil in his chest. I’m not a fool and refuse to participate in the idiotic discussion.

But then John does the most despicable thing. He blames all his faults and phobias on me, his faithful brain.

I lose my cool and control.

John opens his mouth and all the dirty words I know just flow out. When I’m done so is the psychiatrist. And John is sent home with an empty wallet and a lengthy prescription.

Three different medicines, red, blue and white. Morning, noon, and evening.

Did the dumbbells forget about the night?


It’s been seven days.

John says he’s more peaceful, I say it’s that bloody heart leading him astray.

I want to speak, but I don’t feel much the same.

But who wants to talk to Traitor John anyways?

29 comentarios sobre “Traitor John by Terveen Gill

  1. What a fascinating poem. Incredibly creative to put yourself into another’s thoughts. Then in the end he became an uninterested brain. It made me think about what it would be like to truly know another’s darkest secrets. Very entertaining read. Have an amazing day. Hugs 🤗 Joni

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    1. Thank you so much, Joni. The brain is definitely always on the go. Just felt like giving it a voice and a very opiniated mindset. Haha. The tussle between the heart and brain will never end. Who takes a backseat and for how long is the real question. Both are very competitive. Wishing you well and have a wonderful week ahead. Take care. 🙂

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  2. You’ve pointed out exactly what people sometimes suffer–their brain just don’t listen to them. It is so weird. One would think that they can control their own brain–after all it is just one of the organs, like hands or lips. If you order them to do certain things, they do it without hesitation, but brain is very different. Brain doesn’t listen to our command as much as we would like it too. Often it acts against the order we give to it. We order it «get this done», but brain says, «postpone it». And of course procrastination is the result.

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    1. Haha! You know the brain well, Haoyan. It’s an independent entity and can do whatever it wants. At least, it thinks it can. And we’re often flustered by its whims, doubts, insecurities, and obsessions. Why can’t a brain just do so much and rest like a good little organ? And let’s not get started about the heart. That’s another lengthy story. Thank you so much. 🙂

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