HIS PRINCESS by Terveen Gill

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I don’t know where I am.

I was somewhere and now I’m nowhere.

Time? What’s that? It used to be something, but now I can’t remember.

Who am I? My name? A girl lived inside me, but now she’s gone.

Lost? Or dead? No, she’s run away. Hiding. Waiting for the nightmare to end.

I’m not sure it will. It’s been too long. I can’t picture my own face. Do I even have one?

He says I look beautiful. His smile, I hate it. It mocks me, shames me, blames me for the position I’m in.

It wasn’t my fault. Nothing can convince me of that.

There were others like me. A building. It was called school. I think.

The darkness has messed up my brain. It has slowly eaten itself.

Erased the old me and abandoned what I have become.

A monster? A victim? A hopeless story?

I want to scream like I used to when he first brought me here. But no one can hear me.

And he will hurt me. More than what he usually does. But I feel nothing now.

This skin, this body. They don’t belong to me. I have given them up. He can have them.

Pain. What’s that? A feeling? A realization?

A new constant in my life.

This dirty hole is my world. These ropes my friends. They hold me tight.

I sing to them. They talk to me. My arms and legs can’t even move now.

He feeds me. His fingers enter my mouth. I taste only blood from my cracked lips.

I want to throw up. But he will make me eat it. He says I’m his princess.

Mom called me that. That’s where he heard it.

My stepfather stole me. He says he wants his little girl all to himself.

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  1. Very hard Terveen, but very true Saludos Juan

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Thank you, Mr. Juan.
      Hell is very much here.

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  2. How terrible. Awful stepdads!

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Some don’t deserve to be called human.
      Thank you for reading and commenting, Shobana. 🙂

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  3. Very good writing Terveen. You simply set up the scene without going into what he did or was doing. You ‘tinkered’ around the edges…..

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Thanks a lot, Don. 🙂
      Wanted to give the reader a glimpse of the horror.
      An awareness of the pain, despair, and misery.

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      1. And a well-written glimpse it was…..

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  4. ogaraderrick dice:

    That’s dark and sad. I didn’t expect the monster to be someone so close

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Monsters often hide behind the faces we know.
      That’s what makes this even more sickening.
      Thank you. 🙂

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      1. ogaraderrick dice:

        Yeah, it’s disturbing.
        You’re welcome.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      Yes. Evil in the shape of a man.

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  5. haoyando dice:

    It is awful when things like that happen, but it is said the majority of harassment and assault women suffer come from their own relatives (and friends). Sometimes it is easier to defend people from outside than people from inside. Many abused women suffer silently for years and years.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      That is the truth, Haoyan. Many times, the abusers are known to the victim and closely related. There should be severe repercussions for such barbaric acts. Lots of women have no support systems. They are left to fend for themselves.
      Thank you for sharing this. 🙂

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  6. macalder02 dice:

    Abuse of girls is one of the most traumatic aspects when they become adults. Your poem leaves us painted an absurd reality of the human being and calls us to reflection.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      It is a horrible truth that many girls and women must confront on different levels.
      Indeed an absurd reality. One that needs strict rectification.
      Thank you so much.

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      1. macalder02 dice:

        You are very right.

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  7. johnlmalone dice:

    a tawdry tale, tensely told —

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  8. Jeff Flesch dice:

    Wow. You’ve captured a horror in such detail here, it’s quite stifling. Hell personified. Beautifully written, Terveen.

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  9. Terveen Gill dice:

    Thank you so much, Jeff.
    Yes, it is a living hell.
    Unthinkable…

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    1. Jeff Flesch dice:

      You’re welcome, Terveen. Always. Indeed…

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  10. sikhcomics dice:

    This is very dark. But so well written. This could be part of a novel.

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    1. Terveen Gill dice:

      I will definitely give that some thought.
      Thank you so much. 🙂

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  11. Wow! This is gut-wrenching. Great writing! I definitely think we have given more esteem to the word human than it (or rather, we) have ever deserved. It’s certainly not a complimentary word anymore. In fact, our defining characteristics are in bold opposition to that word having any positive connotation. Great post. As Always.

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