I don’t know where I am.
I was somewhere and now I’m nowhere.
Time? What’s that? It used to be something, but now I can’t remember.
Who am I? My name? A girl lived inside me, but now she’s gone.
Lost? Or dead? No, she’s run away. Hiding. Waiting for the nightmare to end.
I’m not sure it will. It’s been too long. I can’t picture my own face. Do I even have one?
He says I look beautiful. His smile, I hate it. It mocks me, shames me, blames me for the position I’m in.
It wasn’t my fault. Nothing can convince me of that.
There were others like me. A building. It was called school. I think.
The darkness has messed up my brain. It has slowly eaten itself.
Erased the old me and abandoned what I have become.
A monster? A victim? A hopeless story?
I want to scream like I used to when he first brought me here. But no one can hear me.
And he will hurt me. More than what he usually does. But I feel nothing now.
This skin, this body. They don’t belong to me. I have given them up. He can have them.
Pain. What’s that? A feeling? A realization?
A new constant in my life.
This dirty hole is my world. These ropes my friends. They hold me tight.
I sing to them. They talk to me. My arms and legs can’t even move now.
He feeds me. His fingers enter my mouth. I taste only blood from my cracked lips.
I want to throw up. But he will make me eat it. He says I’m his princess.
Mom called me that. That’s where he heard it.
My stepfather stole me. He says he wants his little girl all to himself.